Scattered

Question - Will this feeling of being scattered ever go away?

 

Scatter refers to loose or haphazard distribution of components, aka my thoughts!!

 

In the past, not sure how long ago, but I know in the past I did not have this feeling of being completely scattered.  I used to have it together and everything planned out.  Not anymore, now there are moments each day when I catch myself doing one thing and then all of sudden I realize I really meant to be doing something else.  I always catch my self driving to the wrong place.  Today I headed home after dropping the children off at daycare instead of heading to work.  I will load the washing machine and before I can hit the start button I will have started putting away  toys.  I try really hard to not show how scattered I am but I don't think I am pulling that off too well.  Today (yes, again today) we were having a farewell lunch for sweet Emma.  I heard someone say it was one o'clock and instead of slowly and calmly saying my good byes, keeping to myself the mistake I just made; I jumped up completely nervous.  I had realized that I was suppose to have picked up David Nelson by 1:00 and I was once again late.  When I walked in for the lunch I knew this and was suppose to be watching the clock, but somehow I remain completely scattered.  I am not by any means complaining, actually it makes me laugh at myself constantly.  

Maybe its the Lord's simple way of making me smile.

David Nelson and Hendricks about a year ago. (After placing this photo I realized that it does not correlate with my entry at all but the fact that I choose this photo is another example of my scattered thoughts)